Mommy..

I am a mommy now.
Gave birth to a beautiful little boy, Elijah William Larson on November 3rd. at 2:07 pm.
Weight: 7.14oz, Length:20 3/4 in.
I fell in love instantly. I always use to say i didn't believe in love at first sight..but this is different.
This feeling..it's amazing. When he looks you in the eyes..the little noises he makes when he sleeps..his little toes and fingers.. I cannot get enough of him.
I had this boyfriend at one point and we use to say we were each other's LOML:Love of my life..
Well, that relationship ended..and kinda crashed the meaning of love for me. I have come to a realization that Elijah is the LOML..That may be weird to some people, but deep in my heart it brings me comfort. The boy i use to say was the LOML meant a lot to me, and then left. So knowing i can have Elijah be the LOML makes the word LOVE mean something so much more to me.. I can't explain. It is an amazing feeling..and i know i will never lose it for him.

I remember singing the worship song 'Blessed Be Your Name'..the lyrics:

"Every blessing You pour out I'll
Turn back to praise
And when the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name"

and

"You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name
I will bless Your name"


Always touched my heart and brought tears to my eyes..
It reminds me of losing the boy i thought i was in love with..and getting a baby boy of whom i do not deserve.. God has blessed me so many times in life, brought me through such struggle and trials.. It is so so very amazing to me how one day i feel so alone and stranded in the wilderness, and God lifts me up by showing me how much i have overcome, how much i have achieved..

Elijah is THE most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. I have only had him a week today and i already know he has blessed my life forever.

Being a mommy is great..the overwhelming feeling of love and gratefulness.. I will never look back and regret it. Ever. He has changed my life for the better, and it can only get better from here..

I love my son. I love being a mommy.