It's Magic.

Elijah William- Gummy Bear. Flea. Eli. Lil' Guy. Bug.

When i hold him i feel so loved. I feel free..like God gave me a gift of life..that gave me life.
When he lays on my tummy and chest, resting his head on my neck..I see how tiny and innocent he is. How his little arms just dangle to my sides..his little toes curled up against me..Makes me cry to think of it all. He is my baby, my son..and he loves me.

His beautiful eyes staring up at me when he lays on me or when i hold him makes me feel so full inside..so happy. When i found out i was pregnant, i never thought i would feel so happy and full of love when he came. I never knew i would love my life ten times more than before because of his presence..

I try to write how i feel on these blogs about him, my true honest feelings..But it is so difficult to explain. This thing comes over me and i feel like i can fly..I just wanna give him a huge hug..

I wrote him a letter before he was born telling him how much i loved him and how Isaiah and i were blessed to have one of God's creations when we did not deserve it..I told him he was my life, my love. I am saving this letter for him for when he gets older and forgets how much i care for him or love him..when he is in hard times, so i can lift him up like he is lifting me up in my hard times.

I love you baby boy.
Forever and ever.