Sometimes..

Now that it's raining more than ever
Know that we'll still have each other
You can stand under my umbrella
You can stand under my umbrella

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Well I know there's a reason
and I know there's a rhyme
We were meant to be together
That's why
We can roll with the punches
We can stroll hand in hand
And when I say it's forever
You understand
that

You're always in my heart
You're always on my mind
When it all becomes too much
You're never far behind
And there's no one that comes close to you
Could ever take your place
Cause only you can love me this way

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Sometimes breathing is the hardest thing to do..
Sometimes..you know you were meant to be together, you just don't understand how someone could continue something they know hurts you..
Sometimes being right is the hardest thing to do..and letting someone say you are wrong is the easiest..
Being a pushover to everyone around you is so easy..Standing up for yourself is the hardest.

I am so deeply in love..I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I want to do everything with him..But, when will he realize when too much is..too much? When he crosses the line over and over and over again..Am I just suppose to sit there and take it and be ok when he wants me to be? To do everything he wants because I love him..and ignore what I feel? I am stuck..How do I show I am serious? What did I do to make everything I say a joke..As if I don't care about anything and I will let anyone walk all over me..I just never knew it would end up like this.. I am seriously surprised..

Each time I try to say how I feel or stand up for myself, I get shut down..pushed away, as if I am no one. As if what I say means NOTHING! It should not be like this..

A relationship is a two way street, right? Well..time to take responsibility for yourself, stand up for yourself..Because in the end, we are all truly alone right? Besides God, of course.

I am so lost and hurt right now..what's funny though, is hurt doesn't even matter anymore. The word HURT and my tears mean NOTHING anymore because I say and use them so much..Sucks. No matter how much I use them, they reflect how I feel and they should matter. Right?

I could be wrong about all of this..But right now, I am HURT and I do feel like CRYING..But, I won't. I just needed this..to let it all out. Because, every time I say how I feel, it doesn't seem to make a difference..SO, maybe typing it will? Yea..right.

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