So..This is it, hu? I welcome you.

Happiness is such an amazing feeling..

I am in love with it. True happiness. Nothing is fake..So real. I have been searching for this, and right when I stopped searching I found it.

*Definition of happiness: state of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.*

This is what I experience on a daily basis. Seriously, I had forgotten what this kind of happiness felt like. To be wanted, loved on, cared for in THIS way..I love it.

Someone you believe God brings into your life..Someone special to you, that you care for more than so many things. I have that someone. God provides what you need at the right time..Patience is difficult to have, but God showed me how worthwhile it is..And God did provide for me and still is.

I thank the Lord every night for everyone in my life, and I pray for happiness and joy that shines His name through me. This special someone shows God's love to me, which makes me happy.

Thank you God, for providing what I need at the right time.
I am blessed beyond explanation. You are great.

Jesus, I know you're there. Show yourself!

"Whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as unto the Lord, and not unto human." Colossians 3:23

So, basically, whatever you do, do it in the glory of God..Not for humans. Hm..Sounds pretty tough.
I have been through so much lately that has to do with relationships and someone liking someone else blah blah blah..I am so sick of it all. I just wanna break it all off. I don't want to have to think of it constantly and I don't want the guilt of hurting people. All I want to focus on is my relationship with God..He will give me what I need. He does have a plan for me, and it is time I understand that. This life I live is not my own, it is God's. I want to shine his light for everyone to see..I don't want to fall again after getting so close to Him. I want to get as close as I can and feel His love for me.

A relationship is not what I need right now..I need to experience the perfect love my Savior has for me..I need to get on the right path and STAY there, not pull away each time I get closer. He is what I want, He is what I need.

Today at church, Gordon spoke about repentance and I felt like God was talking to me through the whole message, and that it was for me. Then, at Nextgen, Bill was speaking about how we should love our lives because Jesus died to save us..About how the people we surround ourselves with, the music we listen to, the TV we watch..all of it affects our attitudes towards everything..And about how some people shouldn't be in your life if they are bad influences on you and lead you off of the path God wants you to be on. Today was a great day, and God really did speak to me. I am going to do my best and follow what He wants from me. I know what I need to do..Doing it is the hard part.

I love you God, thank you for showing me the path You want me to be on. You are great, and all I want to do is glorify Your name through everything I do.

Amen.