Broken.

You know the feeling when you get hurt or let down time after time after time after time...? How you just get...numb? Not too sure what to say or how to act, but you know deep down in your soul there is something aching trying to get free?
This is me. I loved. I lost. I gained. I, I am numb.

When someone asks me how i feel or why i did something that hurt them so bad..I don't know how to respond. I am so hurt right now, so let down by some people, that i cannot see how i hurt someone else. Isn't that just sad? I am praying and praying to get in touch with how i feel and to keep my eyes and heart open to other people..It's just so difficult right now.

I love with all i have...and always get let down by it, and it ruins how i look at life. How i see other people..

"Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run?"
To where will you run

Why am i looking for love?
I just keep looking..and keep getting let down..
It sucks, i just don't want to stop..But i know i need to if i don't wanna keep getting hurt..

I feel so alone in this world, even though I'm not at all alone..

Help me understand these feelings..Help me gain the knowledge to move forward..


Oh Lord, help me..