My Best Friend- Tim McGraw.
I never had no one
I could count on
I’ve been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin’
So tired of searchin’
’til you walked into my life
It was a feelin’
I’d never known
And for the first time
I didn’t feel alone
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend, oh yeah
You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You’re right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend
You’re more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don’t know where I’d be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You’re my best friend
You’re my best friend
This song..I am so in love with it.
I miss you. Every day. Every hour. Every minute. Every second.
I let you in my life with arms wide open..
You left and slammed the door in my face.
I am broken and lost..
I thought about what to do to let my feelings out, so I prayed and talked to God for the longest time. It was the most I have ever prayed at once. Then, I decided to type it out in a blog..And I am sitting here, blank. So drained, I don't even know what to say. I can't do anything without being sad. I am seeking after the Lord more than ever right now..
Maybe I deserve this. Maybe somewhere along the road I messed up and this is what was meant to happen..Maybe.
I have been let down, abandoned so many times. I did think you were different. I thought NO MATTER WHAT you would stick by my side, just like you said..I should of known better though. This isn't the first time someone has done this to me..
I miss you. I think about you all the time..
I am confused, hurt daily, broken and lost.
I need healed. So..I will pray.
Dear Lord, I pray for healing. I ask that whatever is holding me back from being as close to You as I possibly could be, would move. That it would give me room to squeeze by and run into Your loving, warm embrace. I remember how it feels, and I want it once more. I ask for forgiveness of the sins I have committed. I have done wrong. I love You my Lord. Cover me in Your mercy. I need You now..more than ever. No one could ever replace how you make me feel. Your love for me...It is so overwhelming. I want it back..I want it all back. I love You, and I will come back to You.
Amen
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Oh, Chrissy, my heart aches for you. I have been where you are. A long time ago, when I was a single mom and I felt as you do, someone told me that God was my husband. Psalm 68 says that God is father to the fatherless and defender of widows. A husband is a good thing, a tangible lover and a father for your children, but ultimately, a broken, fallible human. We have to keep turning to God to be our Husband and father and father to our children. He is the only one who will NEVER let us down.
ReplyDeleteand No, you do not DESERVE any hurt. it is God's desire to bless you. He wants to pour out blessing upon blession on you. But to recevei blessing, we have to be in the right posture (and in my experience, that posture is on my knees, worshinping God, PROCLAIMING out loud his faithfulness, even when you feel like you are standing at the Red Sea, and can see the durst of the Egyptian army in the west, and it looks like there is no hope, Still proglaim God's goodness and his faithfulness!))
Keep seeking God, and your help WILL come. You Will be rewarded. He Will bless you and your son. And you WILL be healed. Remember what God has already done for you, He WILL come through again (and again and again). He has been continually faithful in my life, even when I have stumbled and been totally unworthy of His blessings, still He has blessed me. He will do the same for you.
Wow. That was amazing and so encouraging. Thank you so much :)
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