Love like you've never been hurt..

Lets run forever. You and me..

Sometimes I think about how it would be to just move somewhere and start over. Make a whole new me. No one would ever know. New friends. New everything..Wouldn't that be great? No one would know the terrible, irresponsible things you did in your past..You would be new.

I was struck by reality two and a half months ago, when I had my son. Now, I am moving out on my own..I am going to college. It all happened so soon..

I am a 18 year old single mother who will soon be living on her own and going to college online full time..

Two years ago I would of never seen myself here. It is so scary to know that one decision, one word can change the rest of your life. It's scary that you have no idea what is coming next..

I am so scared..I feel so alone all the time. Like I am just a project for people to try and fix. Or, like I am the one who is suppose to rescue people when they come crashing down because I know the right words to say..It is so so hard and stressful..

I just wish for one day..one day..I could be someone else. That I could be in love, or have a beautiful house with a family, or I could go back to High School, be a doctor, or a lawyer..

I wanna live..I wanna be adventurous. I want love. I want the feeling of satisfaction or fullness.

I have an amazing son. Amazing sisters. Amazing friends.. I am just stuck in the "what if" stage..And i don't know how to get out.