Comfort. Knowing someone is there when you need them. Knowing someone CARES for you more than you could ever imagine. Relationship..Love..I am longing for someone to be with, looking for love in ALL the wrong places and I don't know why. I need to stop, but it's not easy..Life is not easy, who said it was? But..no one ever told me it was going to be this hard.
I do stupid things..I make mistakes. I get hurt and fall down. I get up..then fall down again. I have different worlds, and I am trying to make them all into one awesome world, but it's not turning out so great. I am broken, and I am so careless about everything.
I just need to vent.
~You are out of my league, so I am not even going to try. Does prayer even help? I want to not care so bad.. I can't support you forever. I miss my best friends. Youth group will never be the same again, but not only in a bad way. Uh, homework? Naaaah. I like you, DON'T YOU GET IT?? I am glad I had a baby, he has changed me dramatically. I want to move to California or Nevada. I am fake...You.Are.PERFECT.~
Wow. How am I suppose to dissolve when i have all of this on my mind CONSTANTLY??!! This is too much..I wanna disappear, just for a little bit.
I have barely any motivation. Trust is very difficult..and I am pretty sure that I cannot trust..I tell myself things like that all the time, convince myself of things..Bad habit.
Eh..God, you can do it. Fix me. I am giving it all to you..Ready? I am gone..You are here..Bye.
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